When I start to convince myself that 2009 is my best year ever, the bad thing keep coming made the statement change. My brother have his worst ever result, considered failed, I'm not sure but I sound something like he probably would be kicked out from the University. His temper make the people around him feel down too. It's feels like I been 'forced' to mourn for him. Come on lah, I suppose to be still in a happy mood with my previous result.
He probably will smash the car radio if they play this song.
Lot of unexpected things happens, good and bad. When I got a great result, and the bad thing came, my grandparents house was destroyed by the flame. The house the full with the memory of my childhood has disappeared, but life goes on. I wondering why there is no help from the local government?
I tried to email some of the picture and the detail of the tragedy to the local newspaper journalist, and I hope they will publish it.
I'm not sad, just not in a mood for Christmas this year.
Spending most of my day of holiday by sleeping, and watching .avi, sounds bored but so alive for me. Hate to go out, damn hot out there, not good for my sensitive skin, haha mcm pondan. 3 more weeks, I still a lot more to do, thesis and design proposal, haven't touch them yet.
Already got the result for last semester, surprise as hell for the result, still hard for me to believe it. I just want to graduate with 3.5 above pointer, the result just what I need to maintain the CGPA. I think its karma, I help a lot of my friend and it's does make me look like a fool. I give the my assignment as their reference, give them my personal note for revision, it is karma.
3 more weeks, I have to do something that make sense. Maybe T-shirt printing would be nice.
"Abre los ojos, open your eyes." Said Sofia Serrano.
I felt uneasy to hear that. The word keep popping-up in my head.
Well, I should fully utilize my hibernation process. Gain a lot of fat as possible, Inspiration, motivation, and strength. I will need that when I'm in battlefield.
I can't wait to finish this whole education thing. I don't like it, it's not my stuff. The only thing that I love is the competition, I'm a minority, I'm the survivor for the competition, the feeling of winning is so.. extacy.
Examination result will be released in two more day, no deanlist mean that I'm lose. I know God love me and He wont let me disappointed. Amen!
"Appreciate every opportunities that came, grab it, it yours. " Came from my ex-STPM teacher. The quotes appear as a graffiti in my head.
Sometime I remember, but I always don't. They come and goes. Sometime I used it, but most of the time I don't and I regretted.Human has the right and chances to step into the upper class, but we wont take it because they in a warm and a comfy place. Why move?
The world is just too convenient to stay, human only require to move their ass and work. Brain is only used to make a simple decision such as food menu. We never be able to survive renaissance periods.
We easily feel stupid, everything are stupid, 'Only me is the best, disagree then you stupid too.'.
Just feel little upset, I'm in the last semester and I'm 22, and it seems like I don't have what it takes.
Every time when I turned on the laptop, the first site that I going to check out is Facebook. It's funny, I don't thing there's a point why I'm doing that, I don't even like to post, I don't even understand why they keep posting, they even post what they eating. But the updates does, make me feel there's still a living things out there. Who care how annoying they was, it's their life.
I'm happy, seems like they all have a great life. They were show high and they even mixed up the upper and lowercase for their status updates. Good for them, I'm feel so below their class.
I'm unsocialized, I refused all their fun stuff because I have mine. Sometime my fun is their hell, and vice versa. Maybe I have to learn to love their 'fun', but hypocrisy does kills, it's like play your friend's favourite song and hear they sing along.
I'm not really clear what I just writing about, and I just finish watching Rise of Evil.
I'm refuse to go anywhere, I already done this thing for two days. Only for 10 seconds of video.
My camera still resting, while my laptop never been shut down.
After Effect is kinda addictive, wish I have a better PC to support this 10 tan software. Motion graphic skills become more precious than photographic skills when DSLR is everywhere.
Two important things needed, laptop and internet. Laptop, of course as a workspace, internet as a image source, and tutorial too. They didn't teach this subject for my course, thank God we have Youtube.Eat After Effect everyday, hoping this software can guarantee my future.
My future, I always think about my future, that makes me too relying on my future.