Saturday, October 1, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Everyday I do all the same thing, eat the same stuff.
Made my whole body full of rust and fat.
Fak I hate my current routine, it's make me feel so damn old.
I don't want to be old, no one does.
I really need a something new, that make me feel young again.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
I used to do sport when I'm younger, I'm playing football and never stop doing it.
But I've stopped when I listened to Cobain. I started to play guitar and jam with some friend.
And I suddenly felt for art, painting, and I paint. But I never good at it.
I leaved it all behind, I've tried videography, photography, and now graphic design.
It's not that I leave it means that I dislike them, still love but less practicing.
I'm a traitor, pathetic disloyal dog. I always stop doing something for something else.
I never have a good long term commitment for something.
That's why I didn't know what I really good at.
Done this last week, quite tiring doing this. Spent 3 night just to satisfy the customer. My boss teach me how to say yes in everything.
The customer asked.
"Bolehkah siap dalam 3 hari?"
"Erm." I could just say no. It's imposible for such demand.
"Akak mau guna hari tu juga, mau bagi gift sama pegawai."
"Ok la, saya try la kak, tapi saya tidak janji kualiti."
I said yes and I didn't sleep for 3 damn night.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Some friend asked me to join Persatuan Melawat Rumah Terbuka, but i refused. Well I need to prepared my portfolio for next interview, and it need a lots of work and time.
As usual, I prepared a different portfolio for different interviewee. I got a feeling that this time its gonna be a hard interview but worth it.
I got my first interview last month, I'll assume that it was a mistake.
He said that my work are too straight forward. I usually accept criticizes but not this one. He supposed to know that when it comes to designing for government, you don't have to waste your time to be such an Avante Garde, just look at RTM layout and you know what I mean.
He rejected me, but called me a month later after his designer quit.
I did got the job, but I decided to call it a day, just after a day of working. I can't get along his head, and I don't want to waste my young age. I learned a new lesson.
Your 'creative' is not necessarily my 'creative', vice versa. If its does, then it's something that people will pay for, that's is how things work.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
My friend work as a vegetarian restaurant's waiter, he earn more than mine. I am a graphic designer for crissake. I need a car to go further.
Everytime I thinking of getting a car, the newspaper, facebook started to show some horrifiying picture of car accident, and while I'm on a bus on my way to office this morning, I saw a body kneeling on the road, yes kneeling, with his head covered by newspaper and the road are splattered with blood... and brain. Probably hit by a car while crossing.
I'm trying to overcome my phobia here, goddamit.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Namun saya masih agak releks, kerana rakan sekerja lain semuanya pernah datang lewat. Dua bulan saya bekerja, saya tak pernah ponteng walau sehari.
Lalu kusumbat earphone dan mulakan playlist. Bas bergerak agak perlahan ketika ini, I seriously need a car. Fuck mini bus!
Satu SMS diterima.
"Kamu di mana?" Kata bos wanita.
Tenang saya mereply, "Maybe saya lambat sedikit, pemandu bas masih berak, celaka betul dia!"
"Hahaha! Budu ko ni!" Balas bosku.
Sedikit humor menjadi penyelamat isninku.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Felt so rusty, my skills, my passion, all not been practice anymore. I used to be an enthusiast person. I posted every work I've done and wait for the response.
Uninspired has been my excuses, well it's a stupid excuses I have to admit.
All the ugly shall be remove soon, and a golden layer will be painted onto it.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Well, maybe I still think that there's other similar job here.
I've sent my resume to a few company, I hoping to get positive response soon.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
I still not ready, I fail to fulfill some of the requirement, still fail to 'possess any transportation', I hate limitation.
I'm employed, I've earn my first wages, but it's not what I deserve. I've spent my 3 friggin year for this. This is just not enough.
Yeah, of course I enjoyed it, but when I began to get tired, I started to questioning myself.
Is it worth it? Seriously? For the sake of joy?
Friday, July 2, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
No picture left to post. My creative flow stuck. My eyes can't see the aesthetic, my soul fail to produce the passion. Tomorrow I'll find an ear phone, need to feed myself with some fast beat to create the spark.
Poor blogs, now the chinese spammers are the only visitors.