Need my Mojo back.

Everytime I started to do something, I just failed to finish them in the right time. Feel like I'm a total failure. It seems like my engine didn't functioning well. My thesis, my Design, and my Furniture, the progress was really disappointing. I don't do more than 10% of the progress since last two weeks.

But this happen every fucking semester. Every semester, I feel down, I even thinking on quitting my study. I remember that well.

But what I don't really remember is, how did I got back in line, woke up and done my best to beat other.

Maybe, Lilian Too is right, Feng Shui. From tomorrow on, I'm going to change everything start with my haircut, it's Gallagher already.

I have a feeling that I'm gonna have a lot of thing to blog after this.

3001

Final week of January, still here rusty and uninspired. I can't even finish a single assignment, and didn't attend two of classes for the week, er.. maybe it's 3. I'm the type of person that hate to attend class when I'm not ready. I bet those lecturers started to hate me, they used to giving me a good grade last semester. They really going to kill me next week when I show my last week assignment.

Something keep worrying me, it's my MUET certificate. I lost it and and I haven't planned to repeat the paper because it was too late. I heard somewhere that they will ask for the certificate before graduate. I hope they wont ask for it!

Suwet January

To make my January sweeter, I bought a few accessories for my girl. I mean my D60.

The first testing with new accessories.

This is for her eyes, she often complaining about her eyes, the sun is to bright she said.

This will make she look more beautiful. You better perform well after this!

Seems like I have to eat maggie for the whole semester. But I still think it worth to buy, well the item price will raise when the product discontinue, Nikon is kind of brand that always like to surprised their costumer.

I bought SB-600, Polarize filter, and Flash Diffuser. All cost about RM900. Yeah I know that's a lot, this happen when you confuse between needs and wants.

Can't get all at once.

Taken somewhere at KK road. Edited with photoshop la of course.

We can't chase everything at once. Something we got to let it go.

Haha. Macam taik.

16 days of January.

It's only January and so many things going. I stared shooting in Raw, Updating Flickr, know some relatives, getting drunk, slept on someone floor, become a senior and give juniors hell, and outside, Religious issue, Churches attacked, my bestfriend got her boyfriend (haha), 50000 dead at Hiati, Reds out for FA cup... and so much more.

And it's only 15 days of January. Carpe Diem. Good or bad, make your day interesting.

Hello 5th floor. Bye-bye fat.

Just move to another room, finally I got my own 'heaven' and no need to sleep on the floor again. The good thing about sleeping on the floor is you'll wake early, but fak that, we final semers no need to wake up early unless you're the class rep.

I like the room, it well painted. But the 1st thing that I hate about this room, it smelly, and after 2 days, I notice the smell came from my roommate pillows. It stink, especially after you know where it came from.

5th floor, it definitely kill my leg.

Vono bed for my first room.

Owh great, somebody's-room-floor is my first bed for this semester. Viva la 2010!

Kiulu.

The Sulap and the retards.

View from the Sulap.

The view from top of the hill.

Kiulu stream.

Great escape. You never gonna find this in any place, especially Shah Alam.

It keep coming.

When I start to convince myself that 2009 is my best year ever, the bad thing keep coming made the statement change. My brother have his worst ever result, considered failed, I'm not sure but I sound something like he probably would be kicked out from the University. His temper make the people around him feel down too. It's feels like I been 'forced' to mourn for him. Come on lah, I suppose to be still in a happy mood with my previous result.

He probably will smash the car radio if they play this song.

Karma

Lot of unexpected things happens, good and bad. When I got a great result, and the bad thing came, my grandparents house was destroyed by the flame. The house the full with the memory of my childhood has disappeared, but life goes on. I wondering why there is no help from the local government?

I tried to email some of the picture and the detail of the tragedy to the local newspaper journalist, and I hope they will publish it.

I'm not sad, just not in a mood for Christmas this year.

Holidae Inn - Chingy

Spending most of my day of holiday by sleeping, and watching .avi, sounds bored but so alive for me. Hate to go out, damn hot out there, not good for my sensitive skin, haha mcm pondan. 3 more weeks, I still a lot more to do, thesis and design proposal, haven't touch them yet.

Already got the result for last semester, surprise as hell for the result, still hard for me to believe it. I just want to graduate with 3.5 above pointer, the result just what I need to maintain the CGPA. I think its karma, I help a lot of my friend and it's does make me look like a fool. I give the my assignment as their reference, give them my personal note for revision, it is karma.

3 more weeks, I have to do something that make sense. Maybe T-shirt printing would be nice.

Open your eyes.

"Abre los ojos, open your eyes." Said Sofia Serrano.

I felt uneasy to hear that. The word keep popping-up in my head.

Well, I should fully utilize my hibernation process. Gain a lot of fat as possible, Inspiration, motivation, and strength. I will need that when I'm in battlefield.

I can't wait to finish this whole education thing. I don't like it, it's not my stuff. The only thing that I love is the competition, I'm a minority, I'm the survivor for the competition, the feeling of winning is so.. extacy.

Examination result will be released in two more day, no deanlist mean that I'm lose. I know God love me and He wont let me disappointed. Amen!

Upset.

"Appreciate every opportunities that came, grab it, it yours. " Came from my ex-STPM teacher. The quotes appear as a graffiti in my head.

Sometime I remember, but I always don't. They come and goes. Sometime I used it, but most of the time I don't and I regretted.Human has the right and chances to step into the upper class, but we wont take it because they in a warm and a comfy place. Why move?

The world is just too convenient to stay, human only require to move their ass and work. Brain is only used to make a simple decision such as food menu. We never be able to survive renaissance periods.

We easily feel stupid, everything are stupid, 'Only me is the best, disagree then you stupid too.'.

Just feel little upset, I'm in the last semester and I'm 22, and it seems like I don't have what it takes.

Updates from Uranus.

Every time when I turned on the laptop, the first site that I going to check out is Facebook. It's funny, I don't thing there's a point why I'm doing that, I don't even like to post, I don't even understand why they keep posting, they even post what they eating. But the updates does, make me feel there's still a living things out there. Who care how annoying they was, it's their life.

I'm happy, seems like they all have a great life. They were show high and they even mixed up the upper and lowercase for their status updates. Good for them, I'm feel so below their class.

I'm unsocialized, I refused all their fun stuff because I have mine. Sometime my fun is their hell, and vice versa. Maybe I have to learn to love their 'fun', but hypocrisy does kills, it's like play your friend's favourite song and hear they sing along.

I'm not really clear what I just writing about, and I just finish watching Rise of Evil.

Adolf Hitler like this.

First date with motion graphic.

Malas mau sambung. Render and randomly put a music. My main idea is to make a music video for whole music, but I running out of idea. Pemalas gila. Harap-harap bisuk rajin.

I become the fan of Duduk Diam Di Rumah.

I'm refuse to go anywhere, I already done this thing for two days. Only for 10 seconds of video.

My camera still resting, while my laptop never been shut down.

After Effect is kinda addictive, wish I have a better PC to support this 10 tan software. Motion graphic skills become more precious than photographic skills when DSLR is everywhere.

Two important things needed, laptop and internet. Laptop, of course as a workspace, internet as a image source, and tutorial too. They didn't teach this subject for my course, thank God we have Youtube.Eat After Effect everyday, hoping this software can guarantee my future.

My future, I always think about my future, that makes me too relying on my future.

Another monologue.

Just arrived at my cousin's house at Putrajaya, just like every semester, his house is like temporary stop before my flight, and its the right place to secure my pillow, I never planned to buy pillow for every semester. I may steal bucket, but I will never steal pillow, give me free and still I wont take it, yuck.

I'm still wondering to do for the semester, work or stay at home. Work will be great, but I only have 3 to 4 weeks. Why work after the suffering of the previous semester?

The war is over, get yourself out from you hideout.

It was a great semester. Really. Researching at the morning, mockup making-sketching at the evening, and typing at night. Do it every semester and this one is the toughest so far. I guess.

10000+ typed words i guess. 3 reports for the semester, exclude the thesis, and 'thesis' doesn't sound scary anymore.

How to celebrate? Sleep, sleep will do and it was all I need. Wake up, and utilizing my laptop, and watching all the movies that I've been collected for semester. Sounds boring isn't it? well, at least it's costless.

I just realize a funny fact, my lifestyle didn't lead me to a girlfriend. Haha.

Pengutip Hutang

Saya amat benci meminta semula duit dari orang lain, pendek kata, memungut hutang. Tapi kadangkala kita terpaksa, mungkin sebab kesempintan, mungkin sebab maruah, mungkin sebab tidak mahu mereka terus meminjam.

Terpaksa, itulah alasan saya. Di kolej, secara tidak langsung saya jadi ah-long, saya saya kutip yuran, saya beri mereka tempoh untuk membayar, saya desak mereka.

Saya AJK Bendahari pada peringkat blok, saya juga pemilik broadband yang disewakan kepada roomate lain. Dua peranan ini memaksa saya jadi seorang ahlong yang kejam, yang mendesak setiap kali bersemuka.

Sebagai AJK Bendahari, saya dikehendaki untuk mengetuk setiap pintu di Blok hostel ini. Duit yang diminta bukan sedikit, RM15 untuk satu semester. Banyak bagi saya. Semata-mata untuk program bodoh seperti dinner. Orang yang mencipta dinner akhir tahun ini memang bodoh. Ianya seperti memperkenalkan subjek Add Math di sekolah.

Hal-hal yuran ini memang dibenci di kolej, setiap poster yang berkaitan dengan yuran akan diconteng, dikoyakkan, dan renyukkan, dan kami terpaksa melaminatekan ia dan masukkan ke dalam papan kenyataan berkunci. Kita semua benci bayaran, apatah lagi bayaran semata-mata untuk dinner bertema.

Semester depan adalah semester terakhir saya, tidak perlu lagi memegang apa-apa jawatan. Semoga berjaya kepada pemungut hutang yang baru dilantik, dan jangan cuba meminta yuran dinner bodoh itu dari saya!

Unexplain Dream

I was 'Rocket' in the 'City of God' film in my last night dream. It was friggin' scary to get pointed with the gun of Lil' Z. Didn't get it? But seriously you have to watch the movie. I consider the dream was not a nightmare, cuz the movie kick-ass!

But the weird part of the dream was, Michael Jackson take my hand and ask me to follow him to walk out of the 'City of God'. I don't understand, why Michael Jackson?